IN HIS GRIP: S.O.S.

How long will I try

to stand firm

On this shaking ground

As I wait for You

To sway your rope

Lower

So I could cling

How long will I try

To stifle my sobs

And smile

When all the while,

As minutes go by

My heart’s tattered

To more pieces

How long will I wait

How long will I wait

To see Your light

To hear Your voice

To feel Your grip

How long

How long

Oh, Lord

Come rescue me…

I wrote this poem in one of the “down” moments of my life. It felt like water was already up to my chin yet I couldn’t swim. It felt like the ground I was standing on would crumble down at any moment and I had nothing to hold on to. It was painful. Everything was uncertain. And everything felt hopeless. I felt afraid.

It felt like a high time to give up. It was tempting to just run away and hide.

Yet over and over, I remind myself that I wasn’t the only person in the world. Definitely, there are people who are suffering more than I do. I felt that have no right to whine. Hardships and trials are like rain. It falls on everyone. No one is exempted.

“I am with you.”

“Be strong and courageous.”

“Do not be afraid.”

God has said these over and over and over in the Bible – giving His people hope, strength, and light. He said these again and again so that the foundation of His people’s faith in Him would become solid and unshaken.

God wanted His people to know that He is faithful, that He is a powerful and compassionate God who has heard their calls of distress and has come to their rescue.

He allows His people to get through the hard times… so that they could trust Him. And time would come, when their faith in Him was already established – His people would be able to praise Him – in good times or in bad, in laughter or in tears – because they already know their God.

“I am His daughter. He is my father and my God,” I said to myself.

The knowledge of this became the solid rock that I stand upon as the storm rages. Though shivering with cold, I will not be shaken by its strong winds. I will wait upon the Lord. He will surely come to my rescue.

Because the Lord has promised. “I am with you.”

So do not fear, for I am with you;

do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10